grrr! i'm super pissed off now. why are my results so shitty! arghh!! i can't get into a JC with grades like this. not even a neighbourhood JC. ok, fine i shall just forget about it right? or shall i let this be a lesson learnt and aim higer for the o's? ok i'm like super depressed now and do they know? no, they dun all they know is treat me as a maid and help them with this and that. do they even care? such a piece of shit! and what i have to obey them and do what they say and am not even paid for what i'm doing. so why am i doing all this things for them. even if u hired a maid, the maid is being paid can. so where is my monthy pay?? by requesting just a simple favour from them and i get scolded for that. fine! am i fated to do things for them? doesn't they have a pairs of hands and legs or are those hand and legs turn mouldy already for not using them for like god knows how many donkey years. and so u can start cursing and swearing just because u are not feeling well? if u are so not feeling well, then just shut up and go and rest. idiots!! and from the way that u people are saying, it's so obvious that i'm the one that is wrong. it's like whatever u people are saying are against me and u can claim that u are not saying is my fault. i know that u do have your own problems and that doesn't mean that in the whole family u are the only one with problem to settle lar. everyone do have their own set of problems to settle ok. and if i accomodate with u, then who will accomodate with me? it's just so not fair! i know no matter how many times i repeat this sentence, my life won't change for the better or anything but i just can't let it continue this way. i want back my happy and carefree life where there is nothing for me to think about and just let me study in peace! i'm just super pissed off now and if i dun stop here, the list will go on and on and readers will get bored so i shall stop all my complaints now. still waiting for that qns to be solved.

- feel like just ending my life here!